Even though I'm psyched about my upcoming vacation I'm extremely stressed out! Why? Who knows but I just been really out of it and I had a feeling something was about to go bad because for almost a week I had things go almost completely wrong! All I ask for when I leave on my trip is just for peace and relaxation because I wouldn't wish this kind of stress on my worst enemy...
Or would I?!?!?
Either way I never thought I would get so angry that I would just explode in front of one my instructors. But someone actually pushed me to that point today and I just hope that on Monday when my classes resume I would be refreshed and back to being excited about the trip. One thing I also hate is people playing mind games and using manipulation to get what they want. I find that so disgusting and I just can't understand why people think it's okay to do that as if it's second nature. I find it vicious and really upsetting that anyone would think it's okay to stoop that low. If you can't get things the honest way, then why bother with it? We got to do what we got to do to survive to come out on top but to trade in your morale for something so minimal it's ridiculous.
I'm thinking about visiting my brother because I need to relax, my pounding head, feeling weak most of the time and anger that rises now and again when I think about what I went through it's just not healthy seriously not. I might take up kick boxing just to release the aggression. I know I'm going to need a full weekend rest for the trip coming up next week and maybe then I will feel back to myself because right now I'm just not myself.
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